okiEs... 4th and final (i think) skin is out for the year 2005. sch is starting and i wun wanna busy myself anymore.

7nov seems so far when sch hold started.. now its just next week. man i hafta start revising stuff...

anyways...my latest things to do list:

-get lex bro's pressie

-finish up holiday assignments =(

-save up money to pay back those who helped me tide through this week

-hang out as much as i can during the week with my buds b4 new sem starts

and yet again, another new skin.. wad to do, another boring day at home.

its rather simple... and meaningless... but HEY. i will do better still...

i made a new skin, thought it looks abit weird.. but nvm la.. will keep improving..

anyway, spend quite alot of cash this month, even though no sch, ended up going out more often...shall contraol myself not to buy anymore stuff till sch opens.. yeah!

yesterday suppose to meet alvin they all to buy stuff THEY needed.heex.. so suppose to meet at 3, i left ard 2.30, late la i thought.. sky looked horrible when i was leaving... so dark already... so i ran through the drizzle and got onto the bus b4 the real strom started.. woah.. the short ride to eunos mrt took quite long cos of the rain.. and the lightning was so scary.. every 3-5 sec got 1 flash.. eww... sad thing was, went i reached eunos mrt already on the platform.. benson called to say.. the guys dowanna go already.. rain too heavy.. DEN i was like.. shit how how im already here... luckily he said he will still come.. so i continued the train ride.. was suppose to get off at somerset to slack first, in e end i got off at city hall.. i was blessed.. i heard james was meeting us in e envening, so i called to ask where he was, and POOF, he was at city hall! i HAVE THE LURK HAHAHA. so i met him and lP first... den we went for lunch,... its james actualy bdae , but nvm, he had his fair share on beatings on his hcalet alr..

2 hrs later went to meet the guys who eventually came to town.. and we ate again, spent some time at far east,... played pool till around nine then went home.. tiring la... cos of the weather.. and long walks i had.. ha!

but who cares, i get to spend time with them^^



joshiE~

crUxifcUltosIcs VS joshie the dinosaur

its terrible, when things dont go your way.
its so terrible. u just wanna kneel down and pray.
oh redemption, oh come like a tangible substance
come and heal my many imperfections.

what i ask for, gets average returns
could it be, its jus not me?
what the heck is wrong with me now.
since when did this me, become so whiny?

-dwddjoshie|LleMoN|

ah heck all this shznnntt. im going to sleep.
maybe its cos i did overEat....

grr.. this sounds so gay. wth. i think i over exerted myself today. GAY LA. played dai dee lose 1 card do 1 pushup. okae.. not much =x i DID 102 pushups TODAY. STANDARD ONE OKAE.

arms aching. minds in a mess. i am drunk with demonic delusions. n/t josh. goodnight josh. its 3am josh. u hafta sleep josh.

shiznitts...

sometimes my mum yells at me for no reason. even if i were to go out for a while. maybe 2 or 3 hours.. if she calls the house and no1 answers.. she will sms me in a very mood spoiler way, asking y din i tell her i was going out.. ok.. maybe i should.. but not all the time.. c'mon face it.. im already 17! wheres my freedom i deserve? why mus i keep reporting to ya like im some pri or sec sch kiddo?
sometimes, she gets this little pms sprees and unleashes her shznitts on the family.
she would barge into my room and ask me example, why is the lights on the other rm on, no1 inside and the air con is on and the door not shut.U PAY NEXT MONTHS PUB bill! of cos, i should feel very angry or unjust bcos i am wrongly accused. it was my sis who did everything wrong and she sits in another room quietly doing her own thing for my mum doesnt want to scold her. i treat it as favourtism,..,

my dear friends.. this may seem a common problem in ur life also. the thing for me is that, though it still happens. things dont seem tog et any worse and the situation jus cools down by itself after a few hours...i call it divine intervention.. the beautiful thing called time which heals any wound. of cos, this is a family issue, and the thing that contributes to this "quicker healing" then friendship problems is the unconditional love your MUM has for u.

so in return, i jus absorbed, learnt from it, changed how things are around. if my mum can love me so much.. there are theses lil things which i can do to make things around better for everyone. i would rather be screamed at for things i did not do rather than someone else. MAYBE, taking a break from the computer and walking around the house once every 1 or 2 hours would show my mum that i actually care about the houshold too! maybe its bcos my mum is stressed at work that shes acting so shizznitty and i could ease the burden of taking care of the family.

nowadays i can even joke with her on my relationship issues, or rather shes the one poking fun at me. all these things come with time. and also, its bcos once u start to treasure what u ahve, u wouldnt let it go. it wont even get into your "maybe it will help if i do this" LIST.

a cold family is one where its members live thier own lives. even if its someone elder, U can make the first move to making it a warmer place! maybe a simple "mum i very tired today siah... this stupid maths sum cracks my head... how about ur day?"

CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. i wouldnt give up on my family. for i wouldnt know when the day will come when god takes them away from me.


jus moments ago, i felt a sickenning jolt through me. one of whom i regard as my close ones is actually going through a crisis at home . and yet, i am OBLIVIOUS to it. it could be that im not caring or uderstanding enough to find out or to elt others find comfort in talking to me. i WILL definetely change this! i do not wish to lose anyone without doing anything for them. even if its the hardest step i ahve to take.

just my $0.02.
truly yours
joshiE

back frm chalet/sch. finished earlier den expected. mus program TANK to pawn those from ngee ann poly! me and nic will own u all! wahahaha

too tired to go back chalet.. though i nkow they expecting me back.. sians..
still feeling sick no idea why.. pray to get well soon..

yawnZ

wahahha at ben hse now, lucky can blog.. jus now we play soccer. tio MATA.. chua tio sia... they gay blue-man came and act fierce to us.. :u think funny ah? now wad time? u all gt brain think wad others doing at this time?" "HU got watch, wad time now!" wahaha den we go back up le.. sobs..

im having a runny nose. feeling so lethargic. but wad to do... fun awaits me...
finished throwing out clothes needed for the newxt 4 days.. 3 day chalet+ ton at ben hse tonight., in 2 hrs, i'll be meeting my super lao jiao fren KL for dinner. wanna catch up wit him yeah... been so long.. gonna have a jolly long ride to woodlands.. wooah land of the west..=.= not gonna blog for the few days i guess.. unless i can find a pc.. which would probaby nt be possible.. cant bring my lappy dere.. scared there no wi-fi.. hong kan! hahas.. gonna miss alot of ppl.. esp those reading this.. *hugs*

anyways.. gonna get a quick rest b4 i set off.. woo.. sounds like an adventure.. i can smell it!(with a block nose?) wth... singing off! tc everyone!

love,
joshie

i got PUNK'd

a few mins ago(i jus came out of da shower), i looked like snowman...

3 BUDDIES came and threw flour at me in da STREETS.

im am so punk'd

FEELING SO PUNK'D.

my conclusion is..










I GOT FREAKING PUNK'D!!!!!!!

guess wad.. after around 10 hrs of sleep.... im feeling much better and lively!

tonight meeting gen.. hope dont get sabo'ed.. wahhha.. anyways.. im loving my KON... and looking forward to sch open!

i am too sick to post or type. shall jus list down some stuff..
drum lesson rocks.. i played the beat steadily.. at first shy.. hit soft soft.. den it got easier and easier.. so i spammed loud loud! and crashed like no tmr... so class was over.. den i went to find lex at the usual arcade.. so i went down to th mrt. on the escalator! say nic!.. den we went to the arcade together to find lex.. linger there awhile.. den went to the mrt .. called carel ++ to ask where they were!.. suppose to meet at 7 at marina.. 7 i call, they in sch! LOL..

anyway..they started taking foto of me no idea why.. den when carel++ finally came, we had dinner as pastamania instead.. not to mention i was freezing due to my fever and had a bad headache also.. wonder how i lived la.. went hm wif xiang on da train.. now here typing.. oh btw.. i got a nice white quicksilver wallet from chrisite. lex and nic got me a bag. and carel gt me a flesh imp tee.. thanks guys.. i love them!
shall try to carry on the last hrs of my happy day without faintin =x

yAyness! the day god put me on earth! its gonna be special..

woke up feeling abit unwell.. propably cos of the excess cookies i ate yesterday.T_T

anyways.. i awoke to find that mum bought me macs big breakfast la!
wahah.. thinking of wad big breakfast meant during camp was horrible! still.. i gobbled everything down.

looking forward to my drum lessons later.. although gotta leave extra early.. cos i haven bought my book and sticks yet! sigh* deserve to get smacked.. but nic said it was ok so i think i should be ok. wahaha..

if im nt wrong.. tonight we are goin g to marina to eat!

yay!

will update when i get back. and IF im not too tired =)

U ALWAYS MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE BAD GUY. AWLAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS