MANZAnaLICKED.
pleasure enjoyment and delight.


i'll be back tonight.

love, meli.

see, fucked fone.

until ur omni-presence made up for it.

teach me to that good things are worth waiting for.

with love.

if the stupid google ads irritate you, keep clicking them till they dissapear. then joshie will put a dollar in your hand.

its been a sick day.
highschool musical wasnt fun at all.


i cant remember what being a good guy was already.

see what happens when we rush things.

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ministry and servanthood, are they 2 different things?

leadership = respect? or responsibility?

tomorrow will be a better day?
shining sun with a steady wind.

i seem very moodless today. check back soon.

salty balls.
toodles.

really UN-confident about the dbsy examination tomorrow...

the lecture notes look so unfamiliar, doesnt even look comprehend-able.

so happened i wasnt really bothered to study for it also.

i did well for all the other segments making up the final % but YEAH, i dont know why i dont have the motivation to study for the last paper.

Jesus i commit my DBSY paper to you! Into your hands!
please dont bs- me for this one!
Fail Exam, Fail Module, Fail Diploma DOES NOT APPLY TO JOSHUA!

that aside, tomorrow marks the start of my holidays!

ABSOLUTELY CANNOT think of fun stuff to do.
oh dont we all know why?

anyway, i have so many things to buy. i realise my wardrobe stopped growing ever since chinese new year. last christmas seemed like only a month or so away.
i just suddenly miss christmass, esp with GENESIS.

and then xmas 06 is already on the way.
i can hear the joys of celebration in the not-so-distant-months ahead


oh oh, and my word of the day is: LAWL

what is this "lawl"?
its a way to express crazy, high, amusing mirth, pleasure, derision, or nervousness with an audible, vocal expulsion of air from the lungs that can range from a loud burst of sound to a series of quiet chuckles and is usually accompanied by characteristic facial and bodily movements.
Quite similar to Lol, LOL, lol , or LoL. But its not quite it.
if used correctly, may seem as cute to some.




im so bloody addicted to you. wed is gonna be a darn great day. with nothing less than more good things happening.


i realised, when we say action and inaction, its really wonderful how obvious god puts it infront of our eyes.

recently i also dug up a thought from the back of my head. the basis of nonexistant dissapointment.

its lame, and it goes:

without expectation, there is no dissapointment.
would the dark gloomy clouds twist your face and make u go "oh shit"
if u were sleeping and not bothered to go outdoors for whatever reason.

GOOSE u say. GOOSE i shall be.

what on earth damn tiring i spend more than 12 hours running, jumping, singing, shouting, laughing and going crazy.

i dont behave as though my exams are just tmr. aha. whats worse is after the exams...

nothing to do, no job lobang yet.


no money $$$ , cannot do anything.

cannot go on shiok shiok dates also...

X_X





wed is something to look forward to. period.

HE TRULY PROVIDES.

i wanna go for the worship symposium next week. - $60.

skipping subcomm camp

i need to go for the krunk beach party on the 1st. -$20

promised nic and fernnice

WHERE TO FIND MONEY TO PAY FOR THESE?

my atm card broke. i didnt go and change a new one yet.
i have less than $5 in my wallet right now.

at first, mum wasnt very supportive of the symposium. in the end i convinced her.

suddenly, got $80 from my dad. thats just nice to pay off for everything!

HALLELUJAH.

and honestly, im going insane, so stuck in a moment.

nothings going in!

i would gladly exchange 20 webdesign projects for the 2 dreadful exams coming up.

study study read read sigh sigh and nothings going in!

worse still, i think i need a haircut soon aha!

yeah... soon, its gonna be september.

and yup, that marks my official 9 months in ymm.

may u ignite brightly that same spirit u set upon me since, as i carry out your blessed mission .

obviously a brighter side to life.





im one lucky ass to begin with.

i couldnt hold it,
we flew away.

you are too great for reality.
you are my nightwish.


in 10 mins, we distanced from miles to degrees.



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i need someone to keep reminding me.

my INMM project presentation is on WED.
my SWINE exam is on FRI.
my DBSY exam is on MON.


nights sexay.

vintage hats from the 70's
Paiste Sound Formula Sound Edge Reflector Hats
Estimate Cost: SGD$600+
(pardon me, im a mad hobbyist)

Top Hat


Bottom Hat


Badge Logo


Underside



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I had very bad encounters with national library board today.

they hate me.


mm.. josh went to study O_O.

didnt get much in, in the end went to slack =D

sooo tired. i think we were very efficient,
2 hours planning
1 hour designing poster
1 hour to print them out

ALL OF U BETTER COME FOR YOUTH MASS

JP's Pamphlet

GG

we are evil,
your date got punk'd.
we are evil,
u are our joke.
we are evil,
we know your ways.

where is your responsibility?



actually, we are damn bad people.

we ought to ask for forgiveness.

i think we may just be thrown to hell.

after all, its St. Peter.


THANK GOD, its the real bread and wine.


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esplanade rooftop was no fun.
not without you.
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i wouldnt invest in ice-cream.
not when i am alone.
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i wont bother taking the slow walk home.

exceptionally good smeli foot.

im gonna get that pair of shoes i saw today. save save save!

i seriously think im a work-a-holic. i feel so wierd now that my assignments are done.

and i hate studying for exams. PERIOD.

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can someone enlighten me?

what does faith have to do with thinking far ahead?

i do know revelation and visions exist.

is there anything we cant pray about?

i finished doing all my projects.



YAY.

i am emotional.
i am nonsensical. (someone wasn't JUST KIDDING)
i am a very angry blogger tonight.

SUNTEC has evil people.
SUNTEC has bad connection.
SUNTEC is a bad place to shop.
SUNTEC is not a nice place to dwell alone.
i hate SUNTEC.

today, one of singapore's best drummers, J*MMY L**, was being very arrogant, and RUDE.

i am sorry u play for the shich and shamous.
i am sorry u are allocated a big studio.
i am sorry u have many students.
i am sorry u are well known in sg.
i am sorry u are endorsed by the industry GIANTS.

IM SORRY U ARE BALDING WAHAHA!

i am a beginner, im not even sitting on your sweet lil pearl forum. and i realised your cowbell is missing! HAHA. some lil fella must ef stolen it from u.

im sorry for 'warming up' in your studio. i had permission.
im sorry for u barging in without knocking when the lights are on and people are practicing in the studio.
im sorry for u being so senior in your industry and u dont know that doing that is RUDE?


but i forgive u.

*achoo!* i have watched your videos and they are stored in my hard disk.
*ACHoo!* i once looked up to u and even wanted to play like u do
*ACHOO!* i once felt that it was a privilledge to meet u
*SNIFF* there will no longer be a possibility that u will be my teacher

AMEN. may god change my impression of u.

i am sad. i dont get many good-nights.

she wants love, everyday.
i try and i try and i try...

and im going crazyyyyy!!!
AH. i feel bloody sick. my throat is horrible i cant sing anymore.



EH. i didnt manage tog et nics present in time. im a failure at that.

ohwell. belated one for u nicky. hope your reading. im sorry!!!

1 project left. FLASH SHIT. come n ganbatte we can do it.



the problem now is, not too much stress. but i dunno what to do when the holidays come....


EVERYONE ELSE IS SO BUSY THEN.

i dont care busy also must come for practice come for youth mass come to church and study.

Turn on your speakers, this is funny.



Featuring: Cymbal Polisher 'Carlton' my SISTER HEEEEE


ya bored on a sunday. yay i finally got to send my new christian genre samples to YOU.

i know YOU liked it.

nics celeb was alright.

love u nicky.


aight, i finished my CMSK report. time to sleep.




oh ya, i finally made good use of something that came in the national day goodie bagPACK.

tambourine! AHAHA, yes, from NDP 2005.

MUHAHA.

m-dadoll

oh i think i wanna linger ov'ere with u
and if i dont mean it then i wont say it at all
if a pill fell from the sky,
oh i wont think twice anymore cos
nothing is tastier
than you. slurrrp

random thoughts....


ahahas...

lets talk about

havent u heard the older ones saying, look at the bigger picture, then u will understand.

that way u wont be angry/sad/hurt/jealous/envious.

BUT, that way we also find it hard to be satisfied/happy/have a sense of achievement/proud of something we did.

we do things to make others happy, and partake in activities to fulfil what others want of us.

im worried about a certain someone. like all of us who have friends or family who are younger and we feel the need to protect them from bad company, and in other words, dangerous people.

a person so quiet, softspoken, who is also honest, upright, can be turned into something else when they linger around bad company for too long. their minds become warped, and do not think of proprieties . they smoke, steal, become rude, have no respect for anyone anymore.

all for the sake of being like a certain SOMEONE who is popular and who others hold in regard.


how do we compare, these shits of society, to this man named

JESUS.

he spoke words of wisdom, people believed in him, blind could see, lame could walk, the dead rose from the ground, the once possesed were free again.

he who commands the storm and the sea, moved the mountains, parted the waves.

1/3 of the world believes in him, thats 2.1 billion people.

is he popular/respected/loved/wanted enough for u to leave the shits of society and follow him?




still remember this?

havent u heard the older ones saying, look at the bigger picture, then u will understand.

that way u wont be angry/sad/hurt/jealous/envious.

BUT, that way we also find it hard to be satisfied/happy/have a sense of achievement/proud of something we did.

what if this man told u that he loved u the same, even if u failed your exams, even if u had hurt your parents, even if u had commited mistakes so bad the whole world hated u for it.

its time to look to him and see how he can help u and not look in the depths of your failures and ask why didnt he appear.

as ur wondering what sense this makes, he loves you.
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OKAY, i was bored at 11.55pm, so i did some dumb things again. HEHE.

i needed a drumstick holder, a need to mount it somewhere so i can change my sticks faster when i play.

Solution: 1 hi-hat Box, 2 pieces of tape, scissors.

a better view of where its positioned

next, i cushioned my bass drum 3x more so the nasty mamasan downstairs wont set the gov dogs on me.

Used: 3x chinese new year pillows

with mummy's permission...

Triple monkey bass drum mufflers

And since i had more spare time, i decided to signature my Bass drum skin!

Joshua's Signature Bass Drum Resonant Skin

and and, since some people complained its hard to differentiate a china from any other crash, here is another look at my baby.

Sabian B8 18'Chinese

my desktop's power supply went poof at 4pm on 9 AUG. yes national day. i felt like i had lost the use of my arms... not to mention how much project working time wasted.

aiyah.

BUT, miraculously, i sacrificed 3 hours of sch to get my baby fixed and its now up and running! like black beauty the horsey!

innets

haha.. i did some stupid things today. but didnt regret... if we could only have 15 mins together, and need to get home fast, what do we do?

WALK HOME. yes indeed... haha!

im a drug drug drug drug drug.


now what exactly happened on national day?
1. com died
2. i was so depressed i fell asleep
3. and missed the NDP
4. and singapore idol

5. KIDS CARNIVAL

we report at 7am. blow ballon, set up booths, twirl ballon strings. set up AV equipment. arrange trophys. clothed the tables arrange the chairs. accomodate peoples whining.

IT
was a major success i felt. the kids were so excited and happy. and and! i tied camille's naughty brother to the railing using his balloon's string! WAHAHA so cute!

no picture though.

what i have instead, is a picture of me and desker. yes jon desker. not deskar road. not gay. not gay couple. but a good friend.

Behold my new TOY.

it sounds like a trash can LID.

yup yup.

only $260SGD.

i spent 3 hours in total taking VR photos of fullerton, victoria theatre and esplanade.

the 116 trio, teckie, me and lex went round and round the area shooting buildings. yup. the 360 degrees kind.

god loves me, the rainy clouds blew away. and he will bless tmr night with wonderful weather as well.

and so, the first time, i talked to lex about the god who loves me so much.

and tonight he told me he loved lex too.

PRESENTING.......... (drum roll)


MY view of MY stagestar. (low quality/ fastload)

can see?
now hit CTRL on your keyboard!

cannot see the picture?
please click
HERE ' this is definitely worth your time.

taken at 10pm. stitched at 2am. launched at 3am.

my 7610

GOD love u all.

sometimes in a jiffy!

we are a chosen race, we illuminate rays from above to others. help me to be who u want me to be.

recieved alot of shit today from some leaders, requesting this and that. u somehow turned the tide, making everything seem fine.


i stayd back today in school till abt 8.30 just to finish up my swen project. lets put it this way. i started only today.

and i finished it today. well, before 12am. ahaha.. the power of believing. i know i wont fail this either.

i felt rather dissapointed, because i cant give my 100% attention and mind space to the people i like/love/wannabewith/carefor, i know its not fair.



alright..... i know stress can either bring a person down, or elevate him or her to such a high motivated state where we get our brains pumping the right chemical and we can achieve things out of the norm.

alright. tmr's gonna be a better day, and so for the rest of the month! projects will come and go just like the thunderstorms. why should we fear the rocky ocean when our saviour sleeps in the same boat as us?

my fellow believers, fear not, for the pastures of gold and green await us! we are a chosen people! i believe the storm will be over soon!